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General Category => General Discussion => Topic started by: marcj on May 01, 2010, 05:52:09 AM
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Alright guys, I'm at the worst possible spot I have ever been at, and I need some advice.
Ok, lets rewind to the beginning, I met my fiance' two years ago, I met her at an old friends house. He brought her home as a divorced chick, and was sleeping with her at the time. Once she got to know me, we fell in love and moved out, and had a kid together. We've been a very happy and straight couple this whole time, but over the past 2 months I used her back disorder (scoliosis) to get her prescribed pain pills (roxicodone). well, FL doctors will write for whatever you want, so we stayed on these things on a daily basis and became dependent to the point of having infected sinuses from all the binders from the pills just sitting up there piling up, so we decided to try IV, since I'm in the medical field (or at least studying).
On April 26th, I took a lot of xanax, which i've never taken before, and I ended up blacking out when she was yelling at me about setting up our sons food, tearing the place up. her mom came and took the baby (last time i've seen him), and she left with her parents (we are both 27 btw) and she voluntarily cut all communication with me, with an occassional chat telling me she still loves me and all this. well, she ends up admitting herself to detox, and has been there since. In the mean time, I'm left with a stack of bills, sober since that night, and her parents get her permission to move all of her stuff out of an apartment we have (in her name, lol, 9 months left @$750 a month)
So, I'm left trying to decide if I should take out a loan to make the bills on my own and give her the next 3 weeks to figure out if she wants to try again, or should I take the hint now, move out into a friends house as singlemode so quick? I plan on marrying this woman, and I know she's really being bullied by her family because she went to them for help and they completely turned it against me, they even used a psychiatrist to convince her she needs to get away from me.
any advice is greatly appreciated. I'm sitting here in an empty place with the little furniture I have spread out amongst a huge 2br 2bth apartment that will be evicted soon if I don't make the whole rent. Everything I love was all taken from me in one day. :'(
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you fucked up. what do you expect?
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If you can't afford or handle drugs don't do them. If you can't afford children don't have anymore. Don't forget you are also a victim of your own decisions...
I personally am not a fan of paying to borrow money or relying on others. So I'd probably take the hint n avoid more debt, but I'm not a father n I'm not in your situation. Good luck...
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I know she's really being bullied by her family because she went to them for help and they completely turned it against me, they even used a psychiatrist to convince her she needs to get away from me.
You're not a bad person, Marc, but you're part of a bad codependent junkie relationship. What's in your heart is irrelevant, you have some fundamental fucking issues and you need to step waaaaay back and look at your life. This is your moment of clarity time, so pay attention.
If you want a future with your son you need to go into NA at the very least, if not voluntary committal. Press the reset button on your life and let everything worldly go. Keeping your mouth shut towards her parents is the best bet as they will never like you, but they might do you the favor of not saying anything while frowning at you when you try to take an active role in your son's life in a few months, a year, or longer if it takes that. Fuck, keep your mouth shut towards your fiancee - your relationship wasn't anything that kept you from the situation you're in now so there's nothing great about it, you and your ?ex? have just drug your son down into that shitty lifestyle.
Also, the pills have been going on longer than two months so you're full of some fucking bullshit on a couple of levels. If you could listen to him and hear the words coming out of his mouth, a nice fifteen minute phone conversation with Spiker would put your life in focus. You have to choose for yourself what constitutes a life worth living, and then act on that decision.
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^^^Some solid advice right there. Also know this. 'Heisus' can pull you out off anywhere.
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May want this thread moved to the OG forum just in case. :?:
Get yourself straight man. Your boy needs a father. :yes:
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no wonder you suck at shipping.
ITS EASY
sell the pills to
make rent to
take care of your son and
STOP BEING A NIGGER JUNKIE FUCK!
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no matter what you choose to do, quit putting shit up your nose/in your veins. no good comes from that, ever. and yes that's the voice of experience. i know in FL the shit is sooo fucking easy to get from the pain management clinics, but until you ditch it, you're fucked.
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If you promise to ship in time Ill buy your guys leftovers.
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If your promise to ship in time Ill buy your guys leftovers.
Always, ALWAYS, keep a handle on ANYTHING you do that can become a problem. This shit is the fucking devil man.
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blue ones eh? Agreed, that shit is the devil
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But seriously, someone move this to OG, asap.Editing my last post until that is done.
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If you promise to ship in time Ill buy your guys leftovers.
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karma from fucking me on the bov
you must have a really soft spine for jd to like you that much im sure you sucked his eyes into the back of his head
no excuses for dbags who have kids and do drugs
your a faggot and you deserve everything coming for ya
what the fuck is up with guys getting sloppy seconds from there friends
what the fuck fell in love my ass more like you were so desprete for pussy you took your friends girl
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what the fuck fell in love my ass more like you were so desprete for pussy you took your friends girl
I know the kind. The kind with no skillz to get their own womenz, so they play the good guy on their friends girls. Sadly it works about half the time...
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Peeling your friends ex is acceptable. Becoming a junky with her and making babies is not.
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zing!!! all bullshit aside one addict to another nothing else matters at this point,not your kid not your apt.,not your girlfriend....your kid sounds like he is safe and in a good place focus on yourself and your DIS-EASE....if you get right with yourself everything else will fall into place nobody can do this for you...its gonna be a long journey but if you do the right thing you will be suprised by the outcome i guarntee that
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Peeling your friends ex is acceptable. Becoming a junky with her and making babies is not.
quoted for the truth!
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zing!!! all bullshit aside one addict to another nothing else matters at this point,not your kid not your apt.,not your girlfriend....your kid sounds like he is safe and in a good place focus on yourself and your DIS-EASE....if you get right with yourself everything else will fall into place nobody can do this for you...its gonna be a long journey but if you do the right thing you will be suprised by the outcome i guarntee that
That sounds like the biggest load of NA bullshit I have ever heard. If he WANTS to stop, or get control of a situation he will. Calling an addiction a disease is fucking retarded. You don't acquire it by chance, you get addicted by being a selfish cunt, and loading your nose up on a daily so YOU can feel good. How in the fuck is selfishness a disease? Disease implies that the person had no choice. Unless someone crushed a bag of blue's, red's or green's and stuck your fucking head in it and you HAD to breath it in, IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT! You started it to feel better, you let it get out of control, you let it come between you and your stolen girlfriend, and YOU let it become more to you than your child. It's up to YOU to get it under control. Stop being a junkie, and prioritize. And yes, I have been there. I have detoxed off the SAME shit numerous time, I know EXACTLY what you are going through. It just takes a little bit of will power. Stop being a faggot
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I cant blame the ex's parents for doing what thet are doing. They're worrying about their grandchild and daughter first, they don't have the time to worry about you. From there perspective you look like a scum bag, rightfully so. They are doing what needs to be done for the best for their kin, Thats what good parents do.
I'm sure at this point they don't know that your sober. Until they see that they need to keep you away. I'm not saying this is all your fault, this is them,again, being good parents.
You need to help yourself first. Like JD said hit the life reset button. Make the needed changes to get your life straight. Once your lifes straight then work on working things out with the ex.
I agree with keeping your mouth shut to her parents, except for that fact that you NEED to tell them tell them thank-you for helping your kid and ex-fiance, ultimately their helping you too.
Until the both of you are straight, theres no reaon for the both of you to have a place, Find a friend to live with that will babysit you and keep you on the right track.
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Got any Viagras?
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the no brainer response would be..
FUCK YEAH!! FUCK THAT BITCH!!! live on your own your home free she doesnt love you she kicked you to the curb go move in with your friend and make some money and get a different hoe..
the buk response..
Alright guys, I'm at the worst possible spot I have ever been at, and I need some advice.
Ok, lets rewind to the beginning, I met my fiance' two years ago, I met her at an old friends house. He brought her home as a divorced chick, and was sleeping with her at the time. Once she got to know me, we fell in love and moved out, and had a kid together. We've been a very happy and straight couple this whole time, but over the past 2 months I used her back disorder (scoliosis) to get her prescribed pain pills (roxicodone). well, FL doctors will write for whatever you want, so we stayed on these things on a daily basis and became dependent to the point of having infected sinuses from all the binders from the pills just sitting up there piling up, so we decided to try IV, since I'm in the medical field (or at least studying).
On April 26th, I took a lot of xanax, which i've never taken before, and I ended up blacking out when she was yelling at me about setting up our sons food, tearing the place up. her mom came and took the baby (last time i've seen him), and she left with her parents (we are both 27 btw) and she voluntarily cut all communication with me, with an occassional chat telling me she still loves me and all this. well, she ends up admitting herself to detox, and has been there since. In the mean time, I'm left with a stack of bills, sober since that night, and her parents get her permission to move all of her stuff out of an apartment we have (in her name, lol, 9 months left @$750 a month)
So, I'm left trying to decide if I should take out a loan to make the bills on my own and give her the next 3 weeks to figure out if she wants to try again, or should I take the hint now, move out into a friends house as singlemode so quick? I plan on marrying this woman, and I know she's really being bullied by her family because she went to them for help and they completely turned it against me, they even used a psychiatrist to convince her she needs to get away from me.
any advice is greatly appreciated. I'm sitting here in an empty place with the little furniture I have spread out amongst a huge 2br 2bth apartment that will be evicted soon if I don't make the whole rent. Everything I love was all taken from me in one day. :'(
she became your fiancee after only two years???
divorced chick = no no, whatever excuse she gives you as to why she got a divorce is a fucking lie
taking your friends girl? wow you really are a fucking jew
so much shit wrong here im not even gonna touch it
you only had the kid so you could get on welfare you fucking jew
another one i dont even need to reply to
pick a different profession
see purple
see green
be happy that her parents came and took the kid/your girl and not the cops or child protective services
she did you a fucking favor be happy it was clean, also shes a fucking liar she obviously doesnt love you.. unless shes easilly coarsed into doing stupid shit by anyone and her parents forced her away from you (dont use this as an excuse.. no she doesnt love you)
dont do detox unless its a last resort and all other means fail
be happy thats all you got stuck with XD you could be sitting in jail right now faggot
liar
did they already do it? if not clean the fuck out of the apartments and clean yourself up and call them and have them come pick the shit up normally i would say stall them till you can buy yourself more time but they obviously got you by the balls in this case..
if you let her apartment/her credit go to shit your proving to her that your worthless.. why cant you find roommates to move in with you? is your driver licence registered to that adress? if not get on that asap get all bills transferred to your name asap.. that will give you atleast 1 month to get your shit together
not if she doesnt want anything to do with you
youve been with the chick for 2 years.. is that really why she wants nothing to do with you?
sell whatever shit you have to sell asap.. even if that includes your car.. buy a beater civic or whatever to get around.. get some roomates asap.. i know shit sucks but oh well you need to do whatever you can to get atleast 1 month buffer time.. go find a job.. multiple jobs.. under the table jobs.. sucking dick jobs.. do whatever to meet ends meet.. 750 a month aint shit and the bills are as high as you make them
in the meantime as you get shit back to normal
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All the pretty colors :o
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taking life advice from buk is like taking parenting advice from casey anthony
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taking life advice from buk is like taking parenting advice from casey anthony
Compared to what Marc is doing/has done, buk sounds like he knows what the fuck is up. And I don't like jihadists
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Blame florida for its failures. Lets ask the basic question so you thought it was a good idea to start becoming a pill head when your bragging about going in the Military.
You also claimed you couldnt go in because of credit card debit? Im assuming the pill problem has been there since day one.
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I cant blame the ex's parents for doing what thet are doing. They're worrying about their grandchild and daughter first, they don't have the time to worry about you. From there perspective you look like a scum bag, rightfully so. They are doing what needs to be done for the best for their kin, Thats what good parents do.
I'm sure at this point they don't know that your sober. Until they see that they need to keep you away. I'm not saying this is all your fault, this is them,again, being good parents.
You need to help yourself first. Like JD said hit the life reset button. Make the needed changes to get your life straight. Once your lifes straight then work on working things out with the ex.
I agree with keeping your mouth shut to her parents, except for that fact that you NEED to tell them tell them thank-you for helping your kid and ex-fiance, ultimately their helping you too.
Until the both of you are straight, theres no reaon for the both of you to have a place, Find a friend to live with that will babysit you and keep you on the right track.
Holy fuck. Take JD & Tom's advice.
Get your fucking life in order before you try and get back together. The grandparents took the son for a reason. They are your voice of reason right now, sort your shit out before you try anything.
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God damn bro, I thought my life was all fucked up. I guess not having a license isn't as bad as the shit you got going on. I say first thing first. Get off the crack or whatever else you're into. You can't really take care of a kid when you're so strung out that you just black out.
Double time it at Chilis and work as much as you can. You should be saving a grip by not getting all the 'yayo.' See if you can move back home for a wile to get you self straight.
As far as the kid goes, I can't really say. I would just let her keep him and pay child support or what ever. But maybe actually having a kid changes how you feel about them.
This is how we do it in Florida. I blame it on the lack of emissions testing. People get careless.
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Where do you live in Florida I come beat some sense into you.
Shit in Florida, 16 year olds beat up bums for fun. Not kidding.
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This thread stopped being entertaining after the original post. I'm severely disappointed.
Less help, more calling Marc a white trashy pill popping loser who isn't even responsible enough to be sober around his 2 year old kid. Instead he gets high and passes out with a his infant child right next to him.
You are a class act.
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MY NAME IS MARC AND IM A FUCK UP....
hi Mark,
Hi, its been 30 seconds since my last fuck up, and Im here to try and not fuck up anymore... If someone would come and talk to me after the meeting id be mostr greatful....
Im powerless over fucking up and dont want to fuck up again, but I know I cant do it by myself.
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I just hit this for you, Marc
(https://realhomemadeturbo.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.tinypic.com%2Ff0rcb4.jpg&hash=25e3278addb9bb4f6433c88b86934d11cdfaf9c5)
You can bet that anyone with a glass table, likes things up their nose.
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marc you are a piece of shit and the only advice we can give you is get off the junk - after that, you can have other advice
i just watched a dude snort molly, addy, and benzo in one go, rest assured just watching people do it makes it more obvious that you are a junky whore if you are snorting
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Im addicted to in and out burgers
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Im addicted to in and out burgers
I'm addicted to beautiful redheaded women. :yes:
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I appreciate the advice guys... unfortunately I've already self-detox'd, at least the obvious physical dependence symptoms are gone after 3 or 4 days, sometimes more depending on the abuse.
Monday I'm going back to the recruiters to join the Army (hopefully as a warrant officer of some type). I've wanted to join, but didn't want to leave my family. I guess this is my que? i'll let you guys know when I leave for booty camp.
Oh, and sorry to those affected by my fucking bullshit lately with the Forsale section. This was one of the aspects of my life I let go to shit with this addiction, along with my last semester of college, and some other plans. I really feel like a giant piece of shit now that i'm sober and looking at this mess. None of it seemed so bad when we were doing all this bullshit.
BTW, JD, we have been using these pills for 2 months heavily is what I meant.. before that it wasn't a daily thing for us.
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also, sorry I didn't respond until now, I've been staying with family to detox. figured it's best to be a few cities away at this point.
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Eh, 2nd day is ALWAYS the worst. No matter the dependency. I was up to 150mg a day for about a month straight, and before that about 60mg a day for the previous 2-3 months. The shit will suck you in before you know what hit you. I was on it legitamately to start with for my back and knees. Then got off of them, and needed to to work to 100 hour weeks we were doing on contract work. I came home, and realized how fucked up it had gotten me. Now I just do some every now and then when my back or knees flare up with pain. Just be careful man
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army = pussy way out
pussy faggot jew nigger
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SO youre gonna run away from your problems by joining the army. Be a man and harden the fuck up. Handle your shit!!
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army = pussy way out
pussy faggot jew nigger
SO youre gonna run away from your problems by joining the army. Be a man and harden the fuck up. Handle your shit!!
Handle your own shit, Don't be a running faggot and use the army to cover it up. You can do it, take a page out of spikers book you fucking vaginal blood fart
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Seeing the recruiter is probably a good idea actually because joining the military will cet your kid covered by insurance. Also getting out of shitty situation is probably a good idea. However if you love this girl and I mean truly really love her then find out if she feel the same before you up and leave.
Getting addicted sucks to say the least. Glad to hear your detoxed now stay that way and everytime you think about having just one to relieve the pain of everything, think about your kid and the position you where in a few days ago because of this shit!
I'm prescrided some pretty addicting shit and have to really watch it because it will suck me in and I know it. So learn to control yourself it is possible and I know it. I'm in Panama city so I know what you mean about the availability of these drugs.
Make a decision about your life make a general time line for the next couple years and develop a basic plan of attack for how to make it happen. Then take this plan to her if you want her back and show her what you're gonna do to make it better.
Just my .02
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You should just forget about here and move on. She will just end up bringing you down into a relapse or rat you out to benefit her (I.E. get custody of kid) the first chance she gets. This is why I always hold back on doing drugs more than a day in a row. Keep that shit to one weekend night use to keep the demons away.
If you really want to quit and be done for good I say get yourself into some meetings. If you are addicted you will end up caving in saying "just one more time" and be hooked until something else happens. Try switching to something non addicting like weed or psychedelics.
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You should just forget about here and move on. She will just end up bringing you down into a relapse or rat you out to benefit her (I.E. get custody of kid) the first chance she gets. This is why I always hold back on doing drugs more than a day in a row. Keep that shit to one weekend night use to keep the demons away.
If you really want to quit and be done for good I say get yourself into some meetings. If you are addicted you will end up caving in saying "just one more time" and be hooked until something else happens. Try switching to something non addicting like weed or psychedelics.
that's just it.. we didn't do this stuff long enough to build an uncontrollable addiction. I know women and men are different psychologically, but I haven't thought about it more than once. I have strong willpower; I'm afraid she does not, hence all this bullshit she flipped in my face from this... most intelligent people would have asked family for some family support WITHOUT SPILLING THEIR GUTS ABOUT SERIOUS PERSONAL SHIT which leads to dire consequences. I think she may have been done with me prior to this, she was ready to leave, then saw the opportunity to and went with it full force.
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your strong willpower turned you into an IV drug user. cmon bro. you're not fooling anyone here. get your shit together. you made a life long decision to have a child, and that child deserves more than some shitbag drug addict parents. grow the fuck up.
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^^^ x1000.
you don't deserve to be a parent. i hate people like you. the big problem here isn't you fucking up your own life, the big problem here is you fucking up an innocent child's life. why does he have to grow up in a fucked environment just because his parents are mindless losers? put your kid up for adoption so he can have parents that want him in their lives.
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One pistol round to your head should fix the whole situation. Better yet set yourself on fire so your family doesn't have the burden of burying you.
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^^^ x1000.
you don't deserve to be a parent. i hate people like you. the big problem here isn't you fucking up your own life, the big problem here is you fucking up an innocent child's life. why does he have to grow up in a fucked environment just because his parents are mindless losers? put your kid up for adoption so he can have parents that want him in their lives.
You guys are making it seem like this is all her and I did, and neglected our child.. it's not like that at all. You're thinking crack heads, we were managing a normal life during the day and night, with a 40mg-80mg.. that's a regular prescribed amount and is just enough to give you a little buzz for the day..
i'm not going to sugar coat, or at least try not to.. yes, doing 80mg up the nose or iv is more intense than taking it orally, but it's still not going to leave you in a coma.
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zing!!! all bullshit aside one addict to another nothing else matters at this point,not your kid not your apt.,not your girlfriend....your kid sounds like he is safe and in a good place focus on yourself and your DIS-EASE....if you get right with yourself everything else will fall into place nobody can do this for you...its gonna be a long journey but if you do the right thing you will be suprised by the outcome i guarntee that
That sounds like the biggest load of NA bullshit I have ever heard. If he WANTS to stop, or get control of a situation he will. I know EXACTLY what you are going through. It just takes a little bit of will power. Stop being a faggot
Somehow I don't believe you've ever "Been there before" Keelay, if you are using words like "will power"
Get off the fucking beans, if you can't I agree with DMC, put a bullet in your head. Your child doesn't need a beanhead for a Dad, and the world doesn't need another one walking the streets.
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^^^ x1000.
you don't deserve to be a parent. i hate people like you. the big problem here isn't you fucking up your own life, the big problem here is you fucking up an innocent child's life. why does he have to grow up in a fucked environment just because his parents are mindless losers? put your kid up for adoption so he can have parents that want him in their lives.
You guys are making it seem like this is all her and I did, and neglected our child.. it's not like that at all. You're thinking crack heads, we were managing a normal life during the day and night, with a 40mg-80mg.. that's a regular prescribed amount and is just enough to give you a little buzz for the day..
i'm not going to sugar coat, or at least try not to.. yes, doing 80mg up the nose or iv is more intense than taking it orally, but it's still not going to leave you in a coma.
I don't really know you and haven't read any of your posts so I shouldn't have posted what I did above but...............You just contradicted your first post. It seems like you had a big fuckin problem. I don't know why you dumb fuckers do the shit you do.
The dummies like you that ive seen in my life are always breaking up causing drama and then getting back together. I'd say don't join the fucking army. It's full of morons just like you, what do you really think you and your army buddies are gonna be doing snorting pills and whatever else you all can find. It won't be some structured place that will keep make you change you'll get weak like you have been before get in with other guys like your self and do what you guys do. drugs then you'll possibly get some jail time and a dishonorable discharge.
I say stick around stop putting shit in your body pay the bills get the girl and the kid back and be a man for them both.
Or join the army get sent afgahnastan be away from them both for way to long and when you get back that door will have shut in your life and all you'll get out of it is a shitty childsupport wage garnishment every week. You have no choice but to fight this battle and win or your fucked in anything else your ever gonna want to do.
Lick my ballzz mother fucker because this isn't just rambling bullshit. I had a similer situation to yours just I'm not a junky I set my ship straight run it tight. You can to if you don't bitch out and give in.
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zing!!! all bullshit aside one addict to another nothing else matters at this point,not your kid not your apt.,not your girlfriend....your kid sounds like he is safe and in a good place focus on yourself and your DIS-EASE....if you get right with yourself everything else will fall into place nobody can do this for you...its gonna be a long journey but if you do the right thing you will be suprised by the outcome i guarntee that
That sounds like the biggest load of NA bullshit I have ever heard. If he WANTS to stop, or get control of a situation he will. I know EXACTLY what you are going through. It just takes a little bit of will power. Stop being a faggot
Somehow I don't believe you've ever "Been there before" Keelay, if you are using words like "will power"
Get off the fucking beans, if you can't I agree with DMC, put a bullet in your head. Your child doesn't need a beanhead for a Dad, and the world doesn't need another one walking the streets.
Ahh I don't know the guy so I shouldn't have said that. I do suspect that we may all be getting marcjed right now?
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^^^ x1000.
you don't deserve to be a parent. i hate people like you. the big problem here isn't you fucking up your own life, the big problem here is you fucking up an innocent child's life. why does he have to grow up in a fucked environment just because his parents are mindless losers? put your kid up for adoption so he can have parents that want him in their lives.
You guys are making it seem like this is all her and I did, and neglected our child.. it's not like that at all. You're thinking crack heads, we were managing a normal life during the day and night, with a 40mg-80mg.. that's a regular prescribed amount and is just enough to give you a little buzz for the day..
i'm not going to sugar coat, or at least try not to.. yes, doing 80mg up the nose or iv is more intense than taking it orally, but it's still not going to leave you in a coma.
excuses only satisfy those who make them. if you didn't neglect your family, then this post would be non-existent.
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i grew up in florida. and one thing it taught me was to say fuck you to pill poppers. i wish they could invent something to kill you if you didnot have the problem the pill was prescribed for. those roxys should have never been invented i have seen way tomany good people turn to dogshit from it. alot of my friends in florida got caught up in that shit and your a trashy fucking loser just like all my old friends. fuck yourself and give your kid up for adoption.
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^^^ x1000.
you don't deserve to be a parent. i hate people like you. the big problem here isn't you fucking up your own life, the big problem here is you fucking up an innocent child's life. why does he have to grow up in a fucked environment just because his parents are mindless losers? put your kid up for adoption so he can have parents that want him in their lives.
You guys are making it seem like this is all her and I did, and neglected our child.. it's not like that at all. You're thinking crack heads, we were managing a normal life during the day and night, with a 40mg-80mg.. that's a regular prescribed amount and is just enough to give you a little buzz for the day..
i'm not going to sugar coat, or at least try not to.. yes, doing 80mg up the nose or iv is more intense than taking it orally, but it's still not going to leave you in a coma.
fuck off man people who take roxu do just sit around and do it all day. the five mg pill will fuck you up so to do 80 a day is alot you fucking junkie. and to say you did an iv is just a sugar coatded way of waying you shot it up.
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BE A FUCKING DAD, NOT A PIECE OF SHIT.
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BE A FUCKING DAD, NOT A PIECE OF SHIT.
heard.. I just made amends with her mom. she says i'm doing much better than lauren at this point. so I'm just going to keep plugging away at things I can do to reset my entire lifestyle permanently. Once I'm comfortable with myself, i'll try to get my kid back. In the mean time, I appreciate the constructive criticism some of you faggots have given me.
I'm still pretty set on joining the Army. I have a fairly high IQ, with almost a 4 year degree in biology/chemistry, and have worked in every aspect of computer science for the past 10 years. I'm pretty sure I'll be behind a computer or doing something medical when I get in. Either way, I won't be a bullet sponge.
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BE A FUCKING DAD, NOT A PIECE OF SHIT.
I'm still pretty set on joining the Army. I have a fairly high IQ, with almost a 4 year degree in biology/chemistry, and have worked in every aspect of computer science for the past 10 years. I'm pretty sure I'll be behind a computer or doing something medical when I get in. Either way, I won't be a bullet sponge.
Man I'm not saying don't join the army thats a good thing to do. Just don't do it for the wrong reasons and really fuck up your next 4 years not to mention be liability to the guys around you.
And I'm sure most jerk offs tell them selves they won't be put in danger because theyre better then everyone else somehow.
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Somehow I don't believe you've ever "Been there before" Keelay, if you are using words like "will power"
I'm pretty fucking sure I have. You don't know me, so I will give you the benefit of the doubt. Look at my picture above. That's just 60mg. I've been pretty fucking bad off, and quit cold turkey. Yes the withdrawls suck dick. But it's nothing you can't handle with the right motivation. You have to WANT it. Have you ever been addicted to anything, Andy? I'm not saying you haven't, but I'm telling you MY story. I have been down that road, and never had to resort to clinics, or programs. And I have enough will power to now do some occasionally, but like I said earlier, I make sure it doesn't grab hold of me. No more than 2 consecutive days, period. I only do it now because I don't like to drink, and I have a FUCKED up back, and a trashed knee.
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Not all "friendly fire" is unintentional. If I were in a warzone w/some tool snorting opiates to hide from the reality we're stuck in, I wouldn't hesitate to give them a great hiding spot...
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BE A FUCKING DAD, NOT A PIECE OF SHIT.
heard.. I just made amends with her mom. she says i'm doing much better than lauren at this point. so I'm just going to keep plugging away at things I can do to reset my entire lifestyle permanently. Once I'm comfortable with myself, i'll try to get my kid back. In the mean time, I appreciate the constructive criticism some of you faggots have given me.
I'm still pretty set on joining the Army. I have a fairly high IQ, with almost a 4 year degree in biology/chemistry, and have worked in every aspect of computer science for the past 10 years. I'm pretty sure I'll be behind a computer or doing something medical when I get in. Either way, I won't be a bullet sponge.
You just contradicted yourself. Nothing against you fellow nogs that went into the army but...... Why don't you examine some other options? Do something you will enjoy, what kind of things do you specialize in and what are you good at?
Once again, nothing against the army, its just, 95% of the people i know that went in, hated it and got out as soon as possible then ended up exactly where they were when they joined, or even worse due to going from structure, to no structure.
I personally love my job, and don't want to get out and will probably be a lifer, unless some things i have worked up with different agency's come through.
I am not a army hater, i am simply stating that examine ALL your options and branches before you make a blind choice. I know on my side of the world, warrant officer's really arn't thought highly of, i wouldn't want to be one. They don't quite fit in in the ward room with the rest of the O's and don't quite fit in with the E's, so most get out.
If you don't mind me asking, is there any legal obligations or issues that you may have that would limit you to the army? Like DUI's etc etc?
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You should just forget about here and move on. She will just end up bringing you down into a relapse or rat you out to benefit her (I.E. get custody of kid) the first chance she gets. This is why I always hold back on doing drugs more than a day in a row. Keep that shit to one weekend night use to keep the demons away.
If you really want to quit and be done for good I say get yourself into some meetings. If you are addicted you will end up caving in saying "just one more time" and be hooked until something else happens. Try switching to something non addicting like weed or psychedelics.
that's just it.. we didn't do this stuff long enough to build an uncontrollable addiction. I know women and men are different psychologically, but I haven't thought about it more than once. I have strong willpower; I'm afraid she does not, hence all this bullshit she flipped in my face from this... most intelligent people would have asked family for some family support WITHOUT SPILLING THEIR GUTS ABOUT SERIOUS PERSONAL SHIT which leads to dire consequences. I think she may have been done with me prior to this, she was ready to leave, then saw the opportunity to and went with it full force.
You got it sir. Women when in love will do anything to stay with that person especially not rat you out to her parents.
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If you don't mind me asking, is there any legal obligations or issues that you may have that would limit you to the army? Like DUI's etc etc?
Nothing.. I went to jail once because I was in a street racing accident and a 17 year old chick with me got hurt. Her family sued, and they pressed for 10 days in county. btw, it was the other guys fault for hitting me in the rear after he lost and got behind me.. sent me into a T-bone on her side. it was pretty nasty for her; lots of surgery.
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If you don't mind me asking, is there any legal obligations or issues that you may have that would limit you to the army? Like DUI's etc etc?
Nothing.. I went to jail once because I was in a street racing accident and a 17 year old chick with me got hurt. Her family sued, and they pressed for 10 days in county. btw, it was the other guys fault for hitting me in the rear after he lost and got behind me.. sent me into a T-bone on her side. it was pretty nasty for her; lots of surgery.
Sounds like you were both racing in traffic. Your fault, too.
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If you don't mind me asking, is there any legal obligations or issues that you may have that would limit you to the army? Like DUI's etc etc?
Nothing.. I went to jail once because I was in a street racing accident and a 17 year old chick with me got hurt. Her family sued, and they pressed for 10 days in county. btw, it was the other guys fault for hitting me in the rear after he lost and got behind me.. sent me into a T-bone on her side. it was pretty nasty for her; lots of surgery.
Dude, you ever take responsibility? "It wasn't my fault. I was just street racing with a passenger and got in an accident." It's your fault as much as hers as much as his. You are all equally retarded.
Go die in a fire.
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If you don't mind me asking, is there any legal obligations or issues that you may have that would limit you to the army? Like DUI's etc etc?
Nothing.. I went to jail once because I was in a street racing accident and a 17 year old chick with me got hurt. Her family sued, and they pressed for 10 days in county. btw, it was the other guys fault for hitting me in the rear after he lost and got behind me.. sent me into a T-bone on her side. it was pretty nasty for her; lots of surgery.
How long ago was this? I think I remember hearing about this.
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It amuses me to see rent-free basement dwellers give lectures on responsibility.
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It amuses me to see rent-free basement dwellers give lectures on responsibility.
Says the guy who has a running excuse of not being responsible because he's an air head.....
Limiting your responsibilities and taking on responsibilities and dumping them are two different things.
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It amuses me to see rent-free basement dwellers give lectures on responsibility.
Says the guy who has a running excuse of not being responsible because he's an air head.....
Limiting your responsibilities and taking on responsibilities and dumping them are two different things.
I suck at shipping so I do not post in the FS section. So?
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Eh, 2nd day is ALWAYS the worst. No matter the dependency. I was up to 150mg a day for about a month straight, and before that about 60mg a day for the previous 2-3 months. The shit will suck you in before you know what hit you. I was on it legitamately to start with for my back and knees. Then got off of them, and needed to to work to 100 hour weeks we were doing on contract work. I came home, and realized how fucked up it had gotten me. Now I just do some every now and then when my back or knees flare up with pain. Just be careful man
Shieettt 150mg? Try 320-400mg to sustain and up 10 1100mg a day, going thru 1/4s of hop in 2 days, at the peak of it, the detox was hell, pure utter hell, thAnk god for suboxone, although it's far from a cure all, you'll be suprised how good you feel when you get off it though. Despite all the NA bs, addiction manifests from other issues you're dealing with in life, the drugs cover up all your problems, figure out the root of your use, understNd and come to terms with it.
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on a side note, who needs a 100 of them? haha just kiddddinn O0
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Will power... ah yes... LOL, let me know how that works out for you. Acyually I can tell you how it WONT...
Go to a fuckikng meeting, if you think its fucking gay and cand stand it, you belong there. Accept it or dont and enjoy what comes... It ONLY gets worse. Ask me how I know. If you want help look up intergroup in you r area and GO...
fucking waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, be a man and deal with it. I dont suggest suboxone methadone or any of the other government pushed bullshit. My old lady went through the mnethadone shit. Its aload of shit.
KICK DOPE COLD TURKEY, be glad you haver a family that supports you and get your fucking shit together. I suggest AA meetngs in a griity AA hall, NA are mostly meetings full of a bunch of whiny fucking pussy faggots... Opiate junjkies usually are, they tend to think they have it sooo bad.....
Quit for yourself faggot, NO OTHER WAY WILL WORK.
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methadone is shit, subuxone on the otherhand is not. Methodone is a long term treatment which usually fails because kicking methadone can be a month long withdrawal, much longer than a heroin or normal opiate withdrawal which is around a week max. Now suboxone is a quick treatment, if done right, should b e used no longer than 10 days, yeah you'll still feel shitty, but you'll stop puking your guts up, stop being unable to stomach anything and pissing out water. I honestly think opiate withdrawal is the worst feeling ever. ever. Id rather be anally violated by spiker than have to deal with that shit again. Pure, utter, hell.
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LikkeI said, i get it.. My old lady has stuggled with heroin, methadone and soboxone... Its all shit, the real way to do it is kick. Cold. YES you will want to die, no you wont... It SHOULD be enough to remind you you dont ever want to do it again, but if youre a junky you will... and then repeat... over and over and over..
I know this
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Id rather be anally violated by spiker than have to deal with that shit again. Pure, utter, hell.
so your saying spiker should fuck him in the ass to make him feel better?
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scott are you 100% clean now?
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Eh, i dip n dabble, 100 percent clean would be BDVT style, no drinking or nothing, and fuck man, im 23, i can't do that. Just 2 nights ago i was puking my guts out. When the situation calls for it Im not quick to say no, sayyy a rave or somethin yeah im gonna get thizzed the fuck out, or blow some yayo at a club. I have fucked up and went on binges with the oxy and it fucking sucks, it so stupid, i mean, after say a week straight, you dont even feel good, you just feel not shitty. What keelay is saying about 'no more than 2 days straight' is fucking right.
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The old saying is true though, once an addict, always an addict, its just, how much can i keep it under control? er' how out of control can i not let it get.
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er' how out of control can i not let it get.
lol O0
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Its weird though, everyone has their own drug of choice and i dont think they could get addicted to something that isnt their drug of choice. i.e. Theres no way in hell i could get addicted to alcohol, i think an alcohol addiction is probably THE worst, i've witnessed people have seizures while detoxing from alcohol. Alcohol and benzo's are the only 2 drugs you can die from the withdrawals. And people that are addicted to alcohol get subjected to their drug of choice much more often. I mean shit, how often do you see a commercial for some crack or heroin?
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Alcohol and benzo's are the only 2 drugs you can die from the withdrawals.
this is true and alot of people dont know it
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werd, i know the 12 steps nigga, the 13th is the best, 'helping others' :noel:
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in case you didnt know:
snaking a girl from a homie = fuck face move, depending on how good of a "friend" dude was.
actively seeking drugs = your a druggie
overdosing and your batshitcrazy fiancee losing it and calling her folks = the best thing that could have happened to you.
i can think of 1000 different ways that night could have gone worse for you.
you have been behaving stupidly, stop it. pull your head out of your ass and look around and take stock. your child is alive, and still too young to remember this episode.
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Fuck, Scott. I guess I never had the luxury of having that much at my diposal, or I would have done it. I mean the most I've EVER hit at once was 210mg. God I thought my nose was going to fall off. That was a fucking pile of powder, that took a good solid minute to get up there.
And everyone has their own method to quitting. Mine just happens to be the desire to not be a fucking strung out junkie. I've went through withdrawls with a cigarette celophane wrapper FULL or 60's within arms reach. If that's not just will power and WANTING to be sober, I don't know what is. According to everyone's NA bullshit, my addiction would have kicked in and I wouldn't have been able to help myself and gotten into my stash. I guess I'm just super fucking human. WORSHIP ME!
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And everyone has their own method to quitting. Mine just happens to be the desire to not be a fucking strung out junkie.
No, youre fucked and you dont even know it, you wont untill you can actually not lie to yourself...
Thats the funny thing about a lieing junky... They think they're fooling everyone, but the truth is people expect their lies and just dont care that much anymore... The only one you're fooling is yourself.
Super human??
You're a super dipshit... I see thousands of them a month. Literally.
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Shit happens to the best of us. 2005 I woke up on the roof of some random house in podunk west virginia chained to some random pole, clothes tattered with blood all over them. That was my wake up moment, like spiker said I quit cold turkey I realized I was fucked and that the shit would probably happen again if i ever let it. Right now I have been sober since refuse to drink or do anything that might get me to a state of mind where I might not be fully aware of my choices because I know I'm a fucking idiot. So far so good. Good luck to you sir, and just remember a little becomes just a little and the little gets more and more.
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And everyone has their own method to quitting. Mine just happens to be the desire to not be a fucking strung out junkie.
No, youre fucked and you dont even know it, you wont untill you can actually not lie to yourself...
Thats the funny thing about a lieing junky... They think they're fooling everyone, but the truth is people expect their lies and just dont care that much anymore... The only one you're fooling is yourself.
Super human??
You're a super dipshit... I see thousands of them a month. Literally.
OK
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You're thinking crack heads, we were managing a normal life during the day and night, with a 40mg-80mg.. that's a regular prescribed amount and is just enough to give you a little buzz for the day..
Blah blah blah. When you even get NEAR the point where you mix meds and black out, you are a piece of shit junkie. Watch some of the REAL intervention shows. Once you are addicted, you will think anything is normal. Taking drugs is anything BUT normal.
My honest opinion is that abusing perscription drugs should be a capital crime. Mainly because if we let darwin do the hard work, innocent people will get hurt on occation. This coming from a guy who's favorite cousin OD'd.
Here's my advice. Carry big a knife. If your "strong willpower" allows a single mg of anyone else's perscription into your body, stab your jugular as many times as you can. That is the only true way to cure adiction, and not be a drain on those you love.
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no wonder you suck at shipping.
ITS EASY
sell the pills to
make rent to
take care of your son and
STOP BEING A NIGGER JUNKIE FUCK!
this
maybe this is carma for you screwing ppl?
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Fuck, Scott. I guess I never had the luxury of having that much at my diposal, or I would have done it. I mean the most I've EVER hit at once was 210mg. God I thought my nose was going to fall off. That was a fucking pile of powder, that took a good solid minute to get up there.
And everyone has their own method to quitting. Mine just happens to be the desire to not be a fucking strung out junkie. I've went through withdrawls with a cigarette celophane wrapper FULL or 60's within arms reach. If that's not just will power and WANTING to be sober, I don't know what is. According to everyone's NA bullshit, my addiction would have kicked in and I wouldn't have been able to help myself and gotten into my stash. I guess I'm just super fucking human. WORSHIP ME!
Honestly keelay, i dont think you are a TRUE addict. True addicts wont stop because of will power, theyll stop when they hit rock fucking bottom.
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You're thinking crack heads, we were managing a normal life during the day and night, with a 40mg-80mg.. that's a regular prescribed amount and is just enough to give you a little buzz for the day..
Blah blah blah. When you even get NEAR the point where you mix meds and black out, you are a piece of shit junkie. Watch some of the REAL intervention shows. Once you are addicted, you will think anything is normal. Taking drugs is anything BUT normal.
My honest opinion is that abusing perscription drugs should be a capital crime. Mainly because if we let darwin do the hard work, innocent people will get hurt on occation. This coming from a guy who's favorite cousin OD'd.
Here's my advice. Carry big a knife. If your "strong willpower" allows a single mg of anyone else's perscription into your body, stab your jugular as many times as you can. That is the only true way to cure adiction, and not be a drain on those you love.
fuck that. i enjoy other people's prescriptions responsibly.
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Being a higher form of life, I have no idea what addiction is.
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as you polish off that bottle.
I that where you stroe your feelings and emotions?
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Ohhhhh burn ;D
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Ohhhhh burn ;D
how is that a burn? he's able to function normally.
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Honestly keelay, i dont think you are a TRUE addict. True addicts wont stop because of will power, theyll stop when they hit rock fucking bottom.
That's the point I'm trying to make. That I WON'T become an addict because of will power. I have strict guidlines with all my guilty pleasures.
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Being a higher form of life, I have no idea what addiction is.
Cmon that's a bit low, not even sure what you even mean by higher form of life. It can happen to anybody, and it's treatable.
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Honestly keelay, i dont think you are a TRUE addict. True addicts wont stop because of will power, theyll stop when they hit rock fucking bottom.
That's the point I'm trying to make. That I WON'T become an addict because of will power. I have strict guidlines with all my guilty pleasures.
I dunno man, your logic is a bit flawed. What you're saying is that everyone willingly becomes an addict?
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A lot of addicts start with guidelines, then they go away
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Works for me, and has for damn near 10 years.
Not saying they want to become addicts, saying that easily influenced people/addiction prone people fall into the grip alot easier. It can get ugly fast. That's why I do my 2 day rule.
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Honestly keelay, i dont think you are a TRUE addict. True addicts wont stop because of will power, theyll stop when they hit rock fucking bottom.
That's the point I'm trying to make. That I WON'T become an addict because of will power. I have strict guidlines with all my guilty pleasures.
I dunno man, your logic is a bit flawed. What you're saying is that everyone willingly becomes an addict?
Hes a moron, and doomed to fail. His "logic" is flawed, as is his plan as made EVIDENT by the outlined performance vis his own first hand account here he described himself.
Like I said, Let me know how your WILL POWER works for you down the line
Da nile, its not just a river in Egypt any more
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Works for me, and has for damn near 10 years.
Not saying they want to become addicts, saying that easily influenced people/addiction prone people fall into the grip alot easier. It can get ugly fast. That's why I do my 2 day rule.
I dunno man, I think you're not an addict, actually far from it, will power does not work for addicts. Also if you think addicts just keep doing the drugs only to be selfish that is incorrect aswel, the likely don't even get 'high' from the drugs, theyre only using it to sustain, without it they begin to get sick, this isnt from WANTING to get high, it becomes a NEED to use and depending what it is they might need it TO STAY ALIVE. Crazy huh?
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WTF marc. I went to the Chilis on Wells tonight and didn't see your ass. I asked our server if you were working. She said that she didn't know a mark.
On a side note, what is the name of the white girl that is about 5 foot even with black hair and the eye liner eyelashes? That chick is pretty fucking hot. I had her as a server before, but I got pretty tipsy and forgot her name.
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but I got pretty tipsy and forgot her name.
Rules for picking up skanks
NUMBER 1 They tell you there name the next time you see them act like you never met them before. (pisses them off that they didnt make a im a hot ass bitch impression)
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This post is full of fail on top of fail.......
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Im pretty sure Im addicted to in n out chezzeburgers
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WTF marc. I went to the Chilis on Wells tonight and didn't see your ass. I asked our server if you were working. She said that she didn't know a mark.
On a side note, what is the name of the white girl that is about 5 foot even with black hair and the eye liner eyelashes? That chick is pretty fucking hot. I had her as a server before, but I got pretty tipsy and forgot her name.
umm, maybe it's a new girl? or Demaris? I quit a few weeks ago before this crap happened. My girl still works there but she's still on a leave of absence from all this chaos. We are doing much better now though. She moved back in, still straight as a board, got my son back, saved our apartment, joined the US Navy, etc... I can't do much else at this point but continue this path to better myself.
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WTF marc. I went to the Chilis on Wells tonight and didn't see your ass. I asked our server if you were working. She said that she didn't know a mark.
On a side note, what is the name of the white girl that is about 5 foot even with black hair and the eye liner eyelashes? That chick is pretty fucking hot. I had her as a server before, but I got pretty tipsy and forgot her name.
umm, maybe it's a new girl? or Demaris? I quit a few weeks ago before this crap happened. My girl still works there but she's still on a leave of absence from all this chaos. We are doing much better now though. She moved back in, still straight as a board, got my son back, saved our apartment, joined the US Navy, etc... I can't do much else at this point but continue this path to better myself.
Holy fucking change batman.
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WTF marc. I went to the Chilis on Wells tonight and didn't see your ass. I asked our server if you were working. She said that she didn't know a mark.
On a side note, what is the name of the white girl that is about 5 foot even with black hair and the eye liner eyelashes? That chick is pretty fucking hot. I had her as a server before, but I got pretty tipsy and forgot her name.
umm, maybe it's a new girl? or Demaris? I quit a few weeks ago before this crap happened. My girl still works there but she's still on a leave of absence from all this chaos. We are doing much better now though. She moved back in, still straight as a board, got my son back, saved our apartment, joined the US Navy, etc... I can't do much else at this point but continue this path to better myself.
Holy fucking change batman.
Those that fail to learn the lessons of the past are doom to repeat them; don't do the some mistake.
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WTF marc. I went to the Chilis on Wells tonight and didn't see your ass. I asked our server if you were working. She said that she didn't know a mark.
On a side note, what is the name of the white girl that is about 5 foot even with black hair and the eye liner eyelashes? That chick is pretty fucking hot. I had her as a server before, but I got pretty tipsy and forgot her name.
umm, maybe it's a new girl? or Demaris? I quit a few weeks ago before this crap happened. My girl still works there but she's still on a leave of absence from all this chaos. We are doing much better now though. She moved back in, still straight as a board, got my son back, saved our apartment, joined the US Navy, etc... I can't do much else at this point but continue this path to better myself.
good luck man, your gonna need it.
remember, keep your head far away from your ass.